ME, MYSELF AND SHAWNEE

soo im sitting here, in the lab, in city college having a convo with me self..in my head of course..im not crazy. my brain is like hey go study you have class soon...but im like freks that.. dont want to.
my mind and heart are never on the same page.
its wierd. who knows me better than me..no one(i hope)
so why do i constantly fight myself. why do we as people constantly fight ourselves(i know im not the only one)
something as inane as the studying/facebook issue i can deal with, but when it comes to situations and decisions that will actually leave a huge mark on my life..i cant handle..why? Because i fight my inner emotions. i go against my judgement.
im a sucker for cliches and that saying YOU ARE YOUR OWN WORST ENEMY is holding truth.
and to think it took my unhealthy addiction with facebook to figure that out...