its funny...
words snap just like fingers sending tremors to the structure of a body...shaking that structure of a body..breaking that structure of body.
smashing self confidence
inialating self worth
its crazy
how a razor tongue can cut deeper than any knife... scarring your thoughts...shredding your very being. killing the person you are and then leaving hidden bruises.
its sad
words hurt.
skin can repair..bones can mend but what about your soul?
what about your heart?
how do you bounce back from being broken?
its hard
it can take years to build..but one insensitive comment to destroy
this isnt a poem..its just a thought
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
carpe diem
sieze the day! (thats what carpe diem mean by the way)
but any way sieze the day!
ive come to realize that even though i want this to be the motto of my life i dont live by it.
im struggling with the whole walk the walk talk the talk concept.
carpe diem
its a scary thought...and what does this whole sieze the day principle actually entails?
do i live my life party by party with alcohol and chips being my main diet?do i aproach that cute guy, claim him then toss him..with the excuse that life is too short to be tied down?
do i jump off the san fran bridge with a bunjee cord just because?
skyscraping?
cliff diving?
complete recklessness?
i dont know my mind is every where at this point.
momento mori (im only human)
*sigh*
i do know one thing. that to be able to sieze the day i cant end the day permanently...soo nothing too crazy.
i also know that i need to get out there more.
be brave
be crazy
stick the middle finger up to conformity!
from this day i vow to do one thing...that personifies this whole carpe diem motto
im not on the bunjee jumping level..not just yet (baby steps)
but maybe il jump up in the lrc and start screaming
naaaa im kidding...or am i
carpe diem!
but any way sieze the day!
ive come to realize that even though i want this to be the motto of my life i dont live by it.
im struggling with the whole walk the walk talk the talk concept.
carpe diem
its a scary thought...and what does this whole sieze the day principle actually entails?
do i live my life party by party with alcohol and chips being my main diet?do i aproach that cute guy, claim him then toss him..with the excuse that life is too short to be tied down?
do i jump off the san fran bridge with a bunjee cord just because?
skyscraping?
cliff diving?
complete recklessness?
i dont know my mind is every where at this point.
momento mori (im only human)
*sigh*
i do know one thing. that to be able to sieze the day i cant end the day permanently...soo nothing too crazy.
i also know that i need to get out there more.
be brave
be crazy
stick the middle finger up to conformity!
from this day i vow to do one thing...that personifies this whole carpe diem motto
im not on the bunjee jumping level..not just yet (baby steps)
but maybe il jump up in the lrc and start screaming
naaaa im kidding...or am i
carpe diem!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
my apologies....
yes...im a disgrace
how can i honestly call myself a blogger when i let xm amount of days past by with out posting?
throw rocks at me
banish my my online diary
cast me to the depths of the internet so that i may find some other blogging site who will disgrace themselves to let me sign up for an account!!
too much? yeah i know...i tend to do that..forgive me.
so how can i nutshell my life in the confinement of this post? i know! il start with my spring break trip.
spring break was awesome...it was awesome for all the wrong reasons (juicy)
yes..in the process of trying to find myself i lost myself. i backslid down ganja stairs...mind and thoughts lifted away while marijuana lungs broke the fall.
but im not complaining. not about that at least
there one aspect during my trip that im trying to wrap my brains around.
one aspect im trying to crack open and unlock because its the concrete personification of my metaphor. the puzzle im trying to solve. the questions i need answers too.
this one particular thing has inprinted its mark upon me that eventhough im no longer on the east coast my mind feels as though its there. and im confused
more like compuzzled.
when i figure out how to articulate my thoughts into a sensible blog..i promise you i will..until then...the next post awaits
how can i honestly call myself a blogger when i let xm amount of days past by with out posting?
throw rocks at me
banish my my online diary
cast me to the depths of the internet so that i may find some other blogging site who will disgrace themselves to let me sign up for an account!!
too much? yeah i know...i tend to do that..forgive me.
so how can i nutshell my life in the confinement of this post? i know! il start with my spring break trip.
spring break was awesome...it was awesome for all the wrong reasons (juicy)
yes..in the process of trying to find myself i lost myself. i backslid down ganja stairs...mind and thoughts lifted away while marijuana lungs broke the fall.
but im not complaining. not about that at least
there one aspect during my trip that im trying to wrap my brains around.
one aspect im trying to crack open and unlock because its the concrete personification of my metaphor. the puzzle im trying to solve. the questions i need answers too.
this one particular thing has inprinted its mark upon me that eventhough im no longer on the east coast my mind feels as though its there. and im confused
more like compuzzled.
when i figure out how to articulate my thoughts into a sensible blog..i promise you i will..until then...the next post awaits